Our Heaven.

Title : Our Heaven
Author : venetianskies
Pairings : Yunho x Changmin 
Rating : PG - 13
Discliamer : I own nothing. Story belongs to venetianskies @ http://venetianskies.livejournal.com/5308.html

Summary : In which Yunho wants a baby

Our Heaven

It's on a rainy midsummer morning that Yunho announces he wants a baby. Biological or adopted, who cares about that anyway, but a baby. A baby boy with big head and nonexistent hair, small hands and feet, tiny body and everything. A baby.

Jaejoong almost chokes on his morning coffee and Yoochun and Junsu share an uncontrollable burst of laughter while Changmin only gives him an amused and a little questioning look from behind his coffee mug.

"But there's... no way... Changmin can't possibly give birth to a baby, now can he?" Yoochun asks, wiping tears from his eyes and Junsu cracking a dolphin-like laughter by his side. Changmin slaps both of them on the back of their heads so that they literally headdesk, their foreheads meeting with the table.

Yunho can't hide a smile tugging at the corner of his lips and he lets his fingers run affectionately up Changmin's arm and neck only to be buried in his hair. Changmin closes his eyes, tilting his head carefully as Yunho proceeds to scratch him from behind his ear.

"So what's all this baby talk I hear?" he asks and loops an arm around Yunho's waist, Yunho nuzzling his nose against Changmin's neck and his breath tickling warm on his skin.

Jaejoong stands up, furiously complaining about how he was someday going to go batshit crazy and kill them all with his bare hands if this went on for much longer. Or with a spatula, perhaps, and then slice them all into nice little pieces with a knife. Or maybe he should just poison them, it would be the easiest way out and he wouldn't get any blood on his hands. A perfect plan for future usage, he thinks to himself as he walks away.

Changmin smiles as he watches Jaejoong brush past them, hands covering his eyes, and surreptitiously kisses Yunho's hair while running his fingers through the soft locks.




It's a long process along with sleepless nights and hours of talking but they end up adopting, mostly because Changmin isn't too co-operative when Yunho suggests surrogacy or anything alike.

"Oh hell no," he says with a serious face when Yunho asks if he would actually have to have sex with a woman. "You really haven't thought this over or looked for any information on how this should be handled, have you?"

Yunho shrughs and latches himself on to Changmin's neck, "I kind of relied it on your genius brain", he mumbles ashamedly and drops a light kiss on the corner of Changmin's lips. Changmin quirks a soft smile and ruffles Yunho's hair.

So, they end up adopting. It still takes lots of difficult manouvres, such as bribing one of Jaejoong's sisters to perform as Yunho's cohabitant (Changmin was sure Yunho would never get a child by his clumsy own self, no one would be that stupid) and paper work. In the end, the process is a success and being the handsome man Yunho is, they get to follow their baby's development from the very beginning.

Changmin's quiet and reserved at first but seeing Yunho so enthusiastic and happy, gliding his palms over the mother's growing stomach and practically gleeing with joy when he feels the baby kicking.

Slowly Changmin starts to warm up at an idea of having the sound of little feet stomping against the floor and little hands wrapping around his fingers and bright eyes looking up at him, sparkling. But on the other hand.. Changmin wasn't too fond of thinking about changing diapers or cleaning up other nasty liquids from everywhere the kid would go.

But, he thinks, maybe it would be worth it.




Yunho calls Changmin on his cellphone two weeks before the expected date of confinement. Changmin practically drops the phone on the floor and runs to the hospital as fast as he can. Yunho's already there, smiling painfully sadly and Changmin wraps his arms tightly around him, too upset to be caring about who might or might not be watching.

Yunho swallows his tears back, pushes Changmin gently off of himself but never lets go of his hand and guides him to the waiting room. They're quiet for most of the time, no one daring to say or wish for anything.

"It's too early", Changmin finally says, tapping his foot impatiently and breaking the silence between them, "the baby can't be ready yet. Its.. His organs can't be fully developed yet. It's... I'ts too early, Yunho, too early."

"The doctors will take care of it, Changmin-ah, the baby will be just fine. I promise", Yunho whispers, wrapping his arms around Changmin and holding him close. Changmin shudders as he turns to face Yunho. His lips are tight and Changmin can see the pain mirroring in his eyes. He brushes his hand against Yunho's and tries to smile.

Always hope for the best and never let go of those who are truly important to you.





The baby's born two weeks early, with breathing problems and a weak heart. Changmin feels his heart exploding in his chest when he sees Yunho standing in front of the transparent window on a wall, his hands balled into fists and eyes closed.

Yunho catches him doing the same a few days later.The baby's breathing better; he doesn't need all the equipment and help he used to and the doctors say he'll be alright, just like Yunho had promised. They start thinking about what they should name their baby but the outcome is plus minus zero.

When the baby is strong enough to be completely removed from the tubes, he's first handed into Yunho's arms. Changmin's heart clenches as he watches Yunho curling his fingers lightly around the baby's wrists and petting the five strands of hair on his head. Yunho turns to Changmin without a word, raising the baby's arm and waving to him.

"He's got your eyes", Changmin says quietly after an awkwardly long silence, a sad sparkle in his eyes before turning away and heading out of the room. Yunho sighs, chewing his bottom lip in thought and passes the baby back into the nurse's arms.

He finds Changmin crying against the same window as he did days ago.





They don't really talk for the next few days, Changmin turning in on himself and Yunho busy playing with the baby. Changmin watches him with a longing smile in his eyes, absorbing the love glowing from the other man.

Later on that night Changmin slips into the room, his eyes firmly fixed on Yunho's back slowly rising and falling back down again. Asleep, Changmin thinks and takes a cautious step closer, watching and listening to him breathe. He climbs into bed, wrapping his arms gently around Yunho's waist and pulls him closer so that they're lying Yunho's back to his chest.

"I'm sorry for being such a jerk", Changmin whispers nudging his nose into the crook of Yunho's neck and quietly lifts his hair, dropping a small kiss on his hairline. "I love you, you know?"

Yunho smiles into his pillow and pulls Changmin's arms tighter around himself without another word, knowing how hard it was for the other man to swallow his pride and forfeit like that. "I know, babe."

"What are we going to call him?"

"I was thinking about Haneul. How'd that sound?" Yunho coos and shuffles around, turning to meet Changmin's curious eyes. Changmin drops his head onto the pillow, fluttering his eyes closed and tasting the name on his lips. Haneul. Haneul. Sky or heaven. Haneul.

Our heaven.

"I think I like it", he whispers as Yunho snuggles closer to him and rests his head comfortably against Changmin's shoulder.