I Can Only Be With Him If I'm Thin - part 2b

Title: I can only be with him if I'm thin

Author : attentionseekin
Pairing: HoMin
Rating: PG13
Summary: Why do they keep trying to feed me?
Warnings: Anorexia nervosa..? (If that’s a warning…?)

Disclaimer : I own nothing!! Plot and story belongs toattentionseekin

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[Chapter 2b]

Two days later, things were still awkward in the dong bang house. JaeChun was whispering between themselves, still unaware as to what was going on with the HoMin couple, whilst Changmin and Yunho were doing everything in their power to ignore each other. Junsu just sat quietly at the breakfast table staring at the table cloth as though it was the most interesting thing in the world. Seeing that no one was eating the food that Jaejoong had woken early to cook, Jaejoong stared at each individual before breaking the silence.

“Just what exactly is going on?” He asked but no one answered. He had kept the question in for a whole day, as Yoochun told him that one of them would spill, except no one had and it was beginning to frustrate the Omma of the group. After a few minutes Jaejoong raised his voice “WELL?” Changmin took a look at Yunho who ignored him and scrapped his chair back.

“I'm not hungry” Changmin simply said before leaving the kitchen.

Jaejoong was going to call him back before Yoochun rested a hand on his arm, a signal telling Jaejoong to leave it. Yunho just sighed before leaning his head on Junsu’s shoulder. Yoochun looked at Junsu strangely and Junsu blushed once he’d caught Yoochun's look.

Half an hour later the post arrived, and a sack of fan-mail was brought into the living room. Yoochun and Jaejoong snuggled together as they sorted out who each piece of mail was for. JaeChun liked doing this for different reasons. Yoochun loved any excuse to hug onto his Joongie, whilst Jaejoong always liked to organise the mail to compare the height of the piles at the end.

Whilst Jaejoong was arranging the post Junsu and Yunho were still in the Kitchen. Yunho was still leaning on Junsu, and as much as Junsu loved the feel of Yunho on his shoulder, he knew that Changmin wouldn’t forgive him if he’d gotten the wrong idea about them, for Changmin knew how much Junsu loved Yunho. No matter how much Junsu laughed it off and insisted that he was straight; Changmin knew that Junsu had deep feelings. If it wasn’t for the fact that Yunho had been in love with Changmin, Junsu would’ve tried to capture Yunho’s heart; however it wasn’t meant to be, and so Changmin had made Junsu promise not to try anything with Yunho for as long as he and Yunho were together. Junsu inwardly sighed. All he could be was the shoulder to lean on, whilst Changmin had Yunho’s heart. Junsu at first was resentful towards Changmin, but as Yunho was happy, Junsu decided to try and be happy for them also. The only one who knew of his love for Yunho besides Changmin was Yoochun. ‘Yoochun gave me that look again’ Junsu thought to himself

Junsu hated the look Yoochun gave him whenever he was around Yunho because, the look told Junsu, not to get his hopes up. The look told Junsu, Yunho was still very much in love with Changmin no matter what the two had argued about.

‘Unrequited love… Can it be wishing for your happiness even if it’s without me…?’ Junsu thought as he sighed again.

“Yunho Hyung…” Junsu softly spoke as he turned to look at Yunho’s face.

“Mmm…” Yunho mumbled shifting his head.

“You know you need to talk to Minnie again right?” Junsu continued.

“Mmm...” was Yunho’s reply.

“It might not be as bad, now that he’s had time to think over things” Junsu reasoned.

Yunho pouted, still leaning on Junsu “He should listen to his Hyung…” Yunho only moved slightly so he could see Junsu’s face. “You listen to hyung, right?” he looked up into Junsu’s eyes.

‘Gosh, why does he have to look at me like that?’ Junsu thought to himself as he replied a little too quickly “Of course I listen to you hyung”

“Then why can’t Minnie ah?” Yunho let out another adorable pout.

Junsu wished that things were different. Wished that Yunho could love him, he sighed again.

“Because Changminnie doesn’t see you as his hyung anymore… you are his lover, his equal…” Junsu explained.

“Yesterday was so lonely Susu ah” Yunho changed the subject as he thought of what Junsu had just said.

“I know; you wouldn’t stop reminding me” Junsu laughed bitterly.

Yunho sat up then before pulling Junsu into a little hug. I'm sorry Su, I was a downer yesterday, huh?” Yunho apologised. He then broke the hug and stood up stretching. “Thanks for sticking by me. I know you are my dongsaeng but I always feel better talking to you” Yunho smiled.

Junsu smiled back, though his heart hurt. He waved a little as Yunho left the room to talk to Changmin. As Yunho left, Yoochun came in shortly after and sat at the table

“You should stop doing this to yourself” Yoochun stated as he pulled Junsu into his lap.

Junsu just curled up and took comfort in Yoochun's embrace. He outwardly sighed, before replying a simple “I know, but Yunnie needed me”. Yoochun understood Junsu and so he replied “I know he did Su”…

to be continued..