Author : une_topaze ( http://community.livejournal.com/sanity_keeper/2412.html )
Pairings : Yunho x Changmin
Genre : PG-13
Disclaimer : I own nothing. Story and plot belongs to un_topaze@ http://community.livejournal.com/sanity_keeper/2412.html
Changmin prefers to keep his thoughts to himself, because he always ends up saying the wrong thing. Not everyone appreciates his honesty or playful sarcasms. Books and iPods are his constant companions; his band mates probably thinks he is too quiet to fit in their rowdy group. *** We have no choice but proceed with surgery, Yunho-sshi. If you continue to delay the decision, you may not be able to talk or sing again. Yunho fights the burn pooling behind his eyes. So this is how Junsu felt back then. We will talk to President Lee about giving you a month off. They just debuted two months ago. Yunho slams the bedroom door, picks up Bambi, lies down in Jejung's bed in a fetal position and pulls the comforter over his head. Jejung tells everyone to finish their meals, Yunho just need some time to himself. Changmin tip-toes to the bedroom after dinner because he is worried. He opens the door slowly to take a peek at the lump on the farthest corner in the dark room before closing it softly behind him when he hears their band leader's muffled sobs. When their manager breaks the news that night, Jejung and Junsu storms into their night sanctuary and hugs their leader tight. Changmin hesitates, but he reaches for Yuchun who stands quietly next to him, pulls both of them on top of the three men and drapes his long arms around his band mates like a protection shield. *** On the day of the operation, Yunho makes it clear that they will not miss the dance practice. It's a minor operation, he'll be fine. He'll catch up with them easily because he is the best dancer in the band, if not in SME. It is not a request but an order. Yunho watches the van leave the driveway and waits for his own ride. It's February but the cold is still biting to the naked skin. He reaches into his long coat pocket looking for extra warmth when his fingers touches something. Completely bewildered, he takes it out and there's a folded yellow paper between his fingers. A note. He reads the hurried but neatly written hangul. Yunho hyung, We will visit you after practice. Max Yunho wonders when sneaky Changmin slips the note. On his way to the hospital, he pats the content inside his pocket and he realizes that he's no longer anxious. Neither Yunho nor Changmin mentions the paper when they came for a visit that evening, but the older man knows now that what their youngest lacks verbally, he has found another way to show he cares. *** It was all over the news, not quite for the right reasons. The car accident left everyone in shock, himself included. Their leader is in a daze, Changmin can almost feel Yunho's discomfort wearing the damn neck brace. Hyung Just shout if you need anything, anything at all. Max *** Yunho takes out a metal box from his closet (with much difficulty), and places the note he found on his pillow in it. He has a feeling that there will be more. A lot more. *** Yunho flashes his extra white, completely straight teeth. The fuck, you got yourself new teeth? (Yoochun tends to swear when he's surprise) I'm locking all my fans in a room and throwing away the key!(Jejung will do it if it's possible) I'm blind, I'm blind... (Junsu fails at being dramatic) Changmin smirks, their leader has been complaining almost daily how his crooked teeth hurts when he sings. He knew that there's another reason for Yunho's sudden decision to quit smoking (he caught leader-sshi sharing a puff or two after the throat surgery with Yuchun). Yunho notices the youngest looking at him from the kitchen and grins. Changmin laughs, and continues raiding their fridge to appease his growling stomach. *** Painkillers are on the second drawer in the kitchen cabinet next to the fridge. *** Yunho starts to wonder why he's the only one getting Changmin's notes. He has seen Changmin comforting the other members personally when they're down. When Jejung blames himself for the DUI and cries quietly in his bed, Changmin slips under the cover, holds the eldest close and lulls him to sleep. When Yuchun breaks up with his girlfriend, Changmin drives both of them to the broken hearted man fave spot at the Han River and lends his shoulder (to cry on) until his hyung sobers up from crying and soju. When Junsu fumes over the Hollywood Bowl so-called scandals, Changmin distracts him with video games. Winner will tickle the loser as punishment. Junsu begs Changmin for mercy after losing the game for the third time on the fourth day. Yunho envies their skinships. Changmin never initiates any of these with him; maknae will usually pat his back and offer him food. Isn't it easier to just call or write him a text message instead of leaving scraps of paper on his belongings? (Truth is Jejung usually moves in to comfort riida-sshi almost immediately. Changmin is always two seconds too late) *** Yunho cannot keep it inside him anymore. Jejung-ah, does Min leave you random notes? (Yunho ensures he does not sound too interested, just curious.) Yeah (riida-sshi heart sinks, maybe he's not that special after all) if you call cut out recipes "notes" Yunho tries not to grin. He asks the same question to his other bandmates. Hmmm... just to gloat when he wins or threaten to throw my PSP into the Han River whenever he loses a game. Sore loser~ Junsu swears that Yunho skips away from him like a six-year old girl. Yuchun crinkles his forehead. Is there a reason why he should leave me any when he can just talk to me? Riida-sshi feels very special indeed. *** Manager hyung, he can barely walk. Surely we can post.. I'll carry Yunho on my back if I have to, Changmin. Get ready, the van is already waiting Changmin growls but knows that they have no choice but to go to Japan as scheduled. He goes into his room and starts packing. Lose the battle, win the war. *** That night in their Japan apartment, Yunho finds a familiar addition on his bed side table. This time it is in Japanese, and there are random sad face doodles around it. We are neither God nor Superman, so be Human. Yunho keeps the blue note in his wallet. *** Junsu strokes Jejung's hair in the dark alley to calm his fury. Both of them are crying, helpless. Yuchun stands at the other end of the alley, the cigarette between his fingers trembles with anger and frustrations. Changmin watches as the Jungs left the room. Thank you for staying, Changmin. He nods, bows and goes inside. He hates the smell of the room, but thankful that there is no scent of death. He sits down next to the bed, staring at their sleeping band leader. He rushes straight from class to the hospital when Jejung told him on the phone about the incident. Maybe I can work on my assignments while waiting. Twenty minutes later, the youngest rips a blank page from his book and furiously write a word. BABO!!!!!!!!!!! His hand shakes from intense rage at their leader's brief negligence, almost breaking the pen he holds. The sound of his warm tears fall on the paper echoes in the quiet room. When Changmin pulls himself together, he writes another sentence as his left hand slips under the cover and entwine with the slightly smaller hand. Wake up please. An hour later, there's a promise written in black and white I'll stop stealing your food Changmin doesn't believe in God, yet he offers a silent prayer. Please, please don't take him away from us. He adds another sentence on the semi-crumpled paper before sleep embraces him. Hyung, don't leave us (Yunho wakes up a few hours later and carefully extracts the piece of paper from under maknae's hand. He gives it a glance through and keeps it in the drawer. His other band mates are sleeping on the sofa; Junsu snoring softly on Jejung's shoulder while Yuchun's sleeps comfortably on Junsu's thigh. He kisses the top of the young man head to wake him up and puts on his most dazzling smile. I'm sorry Min-ah Stupid hyung. The note seems to be forgotten but Yunho makes sure that it is the first thing he packs into his bag when he's discharged. Alone in his room, he clips it together with a copy of the anti-fan letter and puts it back carefully inside the aluminum box.) *** His back makes a loud pop and there is only pain before everything goes dark. *** Yunho knows when he sees the green envelope in Jejung's hand. I didn't peek, the boy refuses to tag along. He says he has a lot of assignments but I know he's moping around like a lost puppy in his room. Can't stay away from the hospital, can you? Did Jejung hyung give you the bananas? I've seen that lusty look in his eyes whenever he's around them! Yunho scans the eldest from top to bottom and laugh. Unless the said fruit fits in his back pocket like the envelope did, Jejung comes empty handed. Do you have something else for me, hyung? Something yellow, perhaps? Jejung blushes and tries to convince riida-sshi that the bananas are maknae's evil cronies. His fans always sends him the most luscious bunch of bananas, Yunnie-yah! How am I supposed to resist when it begs to be peeled and devoured? Yunho makes a bargain with the eldest. (Yunho insists on performing at their O Encore concerts, the doctor has no choice but to give him painkiller shots. Jejung drives Yunho around for a month) *** Junsu comes home to moans and low grunts. He clutches Yuchun's arm (ouch!) and pales when he realize the noises comes from Yunho's bedroom. That feels so good Jae. Do it again, yes that spot. I told you I'm good at this. Je...Jejung slower, it hurts. It will be better soon, Yunnie-ah. I promise. Junsu runs into Yuchun's room and buries his head under Yuchun's pillow. His virgin ears is traumatised. The owner of the bed looks as perplexed but takes it in his stride. Love in any form is good. *** In the metal box is a post-it note, it was previously attached to the bottle in Jejung's left hand. Hyung, Mom said this will make it all better. Jejung hyung agreed to do it, just suck it in if it hurts (and it will). I'll call Yuchun hyung to pick me up when the party is over. Changmin (Clumsy Yunho sprains his ankle while climbing the stairs of their apartment. Yoosu puts in extra hours of dance practice and naturally missed the important part of the whole incident.) *** What are you doing Min? Working on a plan. And what evil are you concocting dear maknae? I'm gonna steal Junsu's fans, for you. ... I would give you mine, but I love my food so Junsu is the next best person. Why... would I want, need his fans? They will give you health drinks instead of those sappy love letters. Hey, no bitching about my girls. We can buy those drinks ourselves or endorse a brand for unlimited supply? Changmin looks up from the top of his glasses and smirks. Yunho shivers. Now, where's the fun in that hyung? *** Yunho never says anything about the notes, but Changmin knows that he reads it. It has become their unique way of communicating- not quite private but still, personal. These days the notes has become more casual and perhaps, demanding? *** Yunho finds the note on his wallet after shower. Hyung Don't forget my chips~ Changmin On their day off, it is in between the manhwa he's reading. DID YOU EAT MY CHIPS?????? When he wakes up, he finds a bright pink post-it note on his forehead. Please, please please tell Jejung hyung to cook. I'm sick of takeaways. I'm still growing ;-; Stuck to the fridge when he comes home late night from staff meeting. Hyung's dinner is in the red container. DO NOT TOUCH THE BLUE! (The blue container is double the size of the red.) Yunho finds a second note under it. Stay away from my chocolates. I have listed them down, hyung. I know if any is missing. (He took a Hershey's Kisses anyway and was forced to replace it the next morning. On the way back Yunho has to call Jejung to pick him up because he is lost. As he waits for the eldest to come to his rescue, he opens the packet of chocolate and pops it in his mouth like peanuts, careful to leave only one untouched. He hates driving.) *** Yunho hugs him from behind the sofa, and snuggles against his neck as he starts to spell, A-P-P-L-E Riida-sshi's warm breath against his skin tickles. Yunho smirks and waves the red paper between his fingers in front of him. Changmin makes a mental note to pick a harder word next time, like factory or island. *** Five years since the first note, Yunho's aluminum box is almost full. He sifts through the papers in various colours, textures and sizes. There are napkins, post-it-notes (the most colourful of the bunch), scrap papers, labels, torn cereal boxes with Korean, Japanese and random English written on it. All of them are carefully dated, because Yunho doesn't want to forget. Some are in neat handwritings (I'm going to the movie with Yuchun-hyung/BRB/Junsu is wearing your boxers again), plenty in chicken scrawls (I spilled water on Jejung's new suede boots. HELP!/Mom called, be back tomorrow/Han Ga in-sshi is getting married, I'm in mourning. Call me when dinner is ready) while most are just doodles and random drawings of food or Junsu when he's bored. At least he doesn't take stalker pictures of them. *** He corners Changmin after their fifth debut anniversary dinner and asks the million dollar question. Shim Changmin leans closer and whispers, You don't throw them away.  | |||
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